I Quit.

For those who may not already know, I have made some very hefty corrections to my path in life.

    Before I disclose the not-so-secret secret, I just want everybody to know that I appreciate all of the support I have gotten in regard to the things I have been doing (school, soccer, this blog, etc). I know that not everybody is going to agree with the decisions I have made, but in the most loving way possible, I honestly do not care if you agree with them or not. I just ask for respect about my choices. I don't want to hear negative feedback regarding the changes I've made to my life. I have already gotten some guff from individuals I have told, but I know it was the best decision for me and ultimately, that is all that really matters.

     Every single day when I woke up for school this past semester, it was a drag. The previous two years I loved school so much. I woke up ready to go to my classes and learn some wonderful new things. This year, it was honestly so different. I wasn't going to school because I wanted to learn something. I was going to school so I could get a degree, please society, and the people around me. I felt so pressured to be there even though I knew it wasn't where my heart was. As a result I wasn't performing in school or soccer like I was previously capable of. So I quit.

     More than school, most have expressed greatest dissatisfaction toward my decision to give up playing soccer at a Division 1 school. Honestly most of the people who are disappointed have not ever experienced a team sport. Yes I love playing soccer, but it is exhausting in more ways than one. Soccer requires so much time to be successful. There are other things I love to do that I couldn't do because I always had soccer things going on. Instead of being excited for practice, I dreaded it because I wouldn't be able to do other things with my day. The girls on the WSU soccer team were so good to me. I appreciate the opportunity I got to play, but soccer just isn't for me anymore. I wish them all the best and some Big Sky Championships in their future! I will definitely be at their games.

     Quitting is not always a bad thing by the way.
In many cases, people quit things as a positive impact on their well-being. Quitting smoking, cutting out drinking, leaving abusive relationships are all examples of positive "quits". If I was in a depressed state going to college and playing soccer then why is not okay for me to quit? I am no longer constantly stressed and in a near depressed state of mind. So this is another good "quit" scenario and I am proud of myself for finally following through.

     "You quit soccer and became a couch potato"
That's what someone has said to me since I quit.
No, I have not become a couch potato. Yes I am working 2 jobs. Just because I gave-up on these things does not mean I just sit around all day. Yeah, I do give time to pamper myself and relax because running around doing things 24/7 is not how I keep myself sane. So if you choose to do things differently than me, as long as it's making you happy I won't pass judgement. As long as you can grant me the same respect.

     This has been the hardest decision I have ever made and also the first time I am doing something strictly for myself.
Just for the record, I think college should be about wanting to learn and put in the work to get the knowledge, NOT about BSing the way through requirements and credit hours just for the degree.

Just so ya know I am working at Dillard's and at the Weber State Alumni Call Center right now. Starting in January, I will no longer be at the call center, but I will be going to nail school so that I can officially become licensed and do nails! Which is honestly what I really love to do.

So there ya go!
Just thought I'd let everyone in on the big changes I have made.
Oh and don't mind the grammar and spelling mistakes.. It's really late at night, I just had to get this off my chest at long last! So goodnight. ;)